Desert heart.

Desert road with all the wandering souls. Nothing quite like it. She captured my heart and sent sand flurries all the way down into my bones. Those deep craters and crevices in there that carry water (fact: there’s space and water in your bones…they’re malleable) now also carry this desert dust. . . Perhaps these dusty particles were always there, just asleep underneath layers of skin that needed to be shed. . . Ahh to shed. How freeing, exhilarating, and terrifying all at once. . . Comes on in waves, unexpected where did that wave that just smacked me in the face come from type of waves. . . But waves. I’m slowly, steadily, learning to appreciate and open up to them. And they just keep getting bigger. Bigger. Bigger. More magnificent. More demanding of trust. More demanding of heart. More delivering of wilder magic. …. A myriad of thoughts tonight. It was an interesting day. A very sneaky one. With love, Maddy ✨

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Let go and plug into earth.

Let go and allow. Let go and feel. Let go and breathe. Breathe deeply. Now. Anxiety lives in the mind. It lives in the tangled creative jungle of your thoughts. A beautiful place to explore, but not a place to make a home in. So drop into your body. Right now. Do it through breath. Feel your breath. Don’t change it. Don’t perfect it. That’ll only cause more anxiety. Just observe and F e e L the reality of your breathing body in a moment. Just a moment. If possible, plug into earth. Plug your hands and feet deeply into her. Soften. She’s the source of all medicine. She’s the source of all you’ll ever need. Visit her daily. Daily. No excuses. You’re a compilation of earth particles. Pay homage to that regularly. It’ll reconnect you deeply when you’re feeling lost, when you’re feeling anxious, when you’re not feeling. With love, Maddy

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Quick n’ Nourishing

Nourishing food doesn’t have to take a long time to make or cost a lot of money. When we commit even ten minutes to nourishing ourselves through food, meditation, a walk, yoga, etc. we recommit to our well being. This recommitment, when regular and not necessarily grandiose, feeds us far beyond what we initially realize. Sautéed kale + toasted pumpkin seeds Quinoa Olive oil, salt, pepper.

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Trauma in all of its forms

The most accurate definition of trauma is any event or situation that our mind or body finds overwhelming. Why? Because acute overwhelm is the catalyst for our fight-flight-freeze response. When we go into that biologically built response, several things happen within our body. Blood flow is redirected away from our extremities, digestion is slowed, adrenaline is released, tunnel vision is activated, and our psoas starts firing. This happens because our bodies developed to very quickly get us to safety. Sometimes that looks like sprinting away and other times it looks like playing dead or freezing–like when we encounter a bear and we need to just stay still. But most of us are not out in the woods where we’d encounter wild animals that we need to run away from or freeze at the sight of. Most of us live in a city or a developed part of the world and our modern-day bear is a traffic jam, a flood of work emails, little sleep, too many things on a to-do list. All of these inputs have the potential to turn on our primitive fight-flight-freeze response. We were never supposed to encounter the bear regularly. But now we do because from

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Quick & Hearty Lentil Soup

Lentil Soup Recipe

I made this soup on a particularly chilly day. It was the kind of cold you can feel creeping into your bones. Like most things I make, I did not follow any recipe and roughly measured. I prefer the go with a what feels and smells good approach. Disclaimer: sometimes it’s disastrous. Ingredients: Prep work: 1. Dice the onion to desired size. Here’s a great quick video tutorial if you’re feeling knife skill shy.  2. Cut carrots to desired but even size. 3. Pull the thyme off of the stems. (I prefer using fresh thyme that I store in the fridge or freezer for a longer life span) Cooking: 1. Coat a soup pot with olive oil and turn on the heat to a medium-low setting (usually 3 if your stove’s got numbered knobs). Wait for the olive oil to open up. You’ll smell it when it’s hot enough. 2. Throw in the diced onion and stir. Then leave it alone for a minute or so and stir again. Repeat for a few minutes until the onion begins to become translucent.  3. Add in the garlic, minced/mashed in a garlic press or finely cut; stir and let it cook for about

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All that is born dies. All that dies is reborn.

All that is born dies. All that dies is reborn. This past year has been one of constant reflections, joys, and mourning. I fell and unraveled on the floor more times than I care to count, but I also saw the truth underlying my trauma and I opened up the windows for guidance to come forth. And it did.  My yoga practice has served as teacher, healer, lover, and friend over the past years. Like a true healer it exposes every part of myself that I deny or seek to hide, and like a powerful mama it holds me as I process the shattered and shining pieces of myself. The wisest of teachers tell you that you don’t need to go anywhere to experience spiritual growth, because even if you run to the other side of the world (which I almost did) the parts of yourself you seek to hide from make their presence known…you are always stuck with the full spectrum of YOU, but you also always poses the capacity to learn, heal, and transform. All is within, all of your insight and self-sabotage, and it’s unescapable, which is why I think we choose to run or hide. Because

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Why try yoga?

I still remember the first time I tried yoga. It was at night and I practiced on the carpet in the living room. My teacher(s): the Yoga Zone folks on Hulu. I still can’t confidently point to one reason I wanted to try yoga. The best I can come up with is that I wanted to lose the weight I needed to keep in the first place. (and I hated exercise) But we all have our stories. The weight stayed even though I certainly broke a sweat. What I lost was much more important—the disconnection to my own body. For the first time I could truly feel myself take a breath. I could feel the internal sensations of my legs. That first hour brought an explosion of energy formerly blocked. The sweetness of the last pose—savasana—where you just lie there with nothing required of you infected me like a sweet dopey drug. When I got off the floor all I could feel was the desire for more and more and more. But why should you try yoga? Why would you want to go out and buy those tight fitting “yoga pants” and sit on the floor without the guarantee that

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MOVEmber

This month is ripe for introspection. Pause. Listen to your breath. Pause. Listen to your internal dialogue. Pause. Listen to your soul. Continue reading

Intention.

Live every day with intention. Take a moment today to explore what that means for you. How does or would that look like for you? What is your intention? Continue reading